Damn Healthcare B.S.

You know, I hate the bull***t involved with healthcare! My hospital bought two new CT machines last year. One is a 64-slice, one is a 320-slice. Our 320 would be number 7 in the WORLD! Big time advanced technology. At the last minute, and I mean LAST, the Sisters of Charity decide maybe we shouldn't have it. Maybe our hospital won't use it enough to justify having it. ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? We are THE medical hub in Montana and basically Wyoming also. Whatever. They couldn't decide this like a month or TEN ago? Gotta wait til we have the damn thing here in town ready to install? SO now I don't go to California for a week of training, which is fine, I will go some other time. But, my sister just booked a flight to meet me there for the weekend. Her flight plans have to change. I get that that's the risk you take mixing business with pleasure, but I think the whole thing is a bunch of crap. IF they decide we get the machine, we can't have it installed until God-knows-when. In the meantime, I am (supposedly) going to go to Vitrea Vital Images training in Minneapolis. Yeah, I will believe that when I land...

By the way, yes... I am bitter :)

Theme?

I'm beginning to think my blog should have a theme! I see all of these wonderful blogs that actually have a purpose and here I sit just chatting to myself about nothing in particular. But, it keeps me happy! So, I stay random... It suits me :)

Court system sucks

Super long story short, my daughter got an M.I.P. (Minor In Possession) the other night. She came home drunk again and my husband put her in handcuffs and took her down to the P.D. They gave her the ticket and a court date of "on or before" Oct. 2. Well, luckily, I have had the last 2 days off and had time to take her to court today. We get there, go through security, stand in line to check in, get creeped-out by the people we are lumped-in with (3 of which she knows), and find out they don't have her paperwork. Next we had to stand in another line to get the paperwork, which puts us dangerously close to being late. Come to find out, they don't have her paperwork ready! I kept her out of school for this? REALLY??? She got the ticket last Thursday and it's Tuesday. How hard can it really be? And maybe the ticket should say something like "not before (date), not after (date)." Makes me crazy. The lady said, "Well, you came too soon I guess." No shit, Sherlock. Please forgive us for trying to face the charges like GOOD citizens. We will certainly put it off to the last second. Actually, we will be going in next Tuesday since I have that day off as well. I am leaving for a week on Oct. 3rd and really need to get this all rolling before the 2nd. I am going to call on Monday to be sure they have their shit together before showing up on Tues, but if it's not there... Prepare to read a blog about my disorderly conduct ticket :)

Could be my dad

So, on again about my life in general... Not long after I found out the name of my biological father, I decided to go ahead and try to find him. Of course, I only really had the last name. My aunts weren't sure which brother it was for sure but I could find out ;) I had my contact at the library get pictures of both of the guys from the yearbook that my birthmother was a senior in. Of course, it's not like I really look exactly like one or the other, but it was fun to see where I came from (even if I'm not sure which one is my biological father). I am assuming the one who was a senior with Toni is my birthfather, but that really is just an assumption. So, I googled a little bit and found that the one guy is here in Montana still. I dialed six of the seven numbers about ten times before I finally made the call. A very friendly gal answered the phone and put my guy on the line. I wasn't really sure what to say. I didn't want him to be too blown away. As far as I know, my birthfather doesn't know I even exist! So, here's what I said, "I'm Toni R***'s daughter. She actually had me her senior year and her family thought you might know something about my father." REALLY??? How dumb was THAT? But, he was very pleasant and said he couldn't even remember who she dated in highschool. He didn't know that she had had a baby, either. SO... Either he had a sex with her and she never told him about me, or maybe he's just in denial, or maybe he knows EXACTLY who I am and he doesn't want to have a relationship. I don't know, I just didn't feel like throwing him for such a loop at that point. Maybe someday I will be brave enough to get in touch with him again and try to find out what I can. Maybe.

I LOVE T.A.P.S.

I am a big fan of the show Ghost Hunters! Not ashamed to admit I only WISH that I could be a paranormal investigator. But, I don't want to be on one of those shows that ALWAYS hears or sees something but the camera never catches anything. That's a bunch of crap, if you ask me (which I know, you didn't). On the other hand, the guys and gals from T.A.P.S. are out to prove people wrong. They WANT to de-bunk what people hear or see or feel. What makes the show so amazing is when they actually get something on camera or microphone that gives me goosebumps. The reason I feel I must blog about this right now? I am watching a new episode and they are hearing voices! LOVE IT! Someday, maybe I will go into some of the things that I would believe have been personal paranormal experiences. For now, I have to watch "THE REVEAL!"

Go Broncos!

Yeah, it was messy and perhaps a bit corrupt, but a win is a win! Even I have to admit that Denver shouldn't have gotten that last really bad call, but I'm glad they won anyhow. Nothing like sitting in a room full of Bronco haters who talk shit all game long and then BLAM! Losers :) I am not always proud of my Broncos, but I am not a fair-weather fan. I stick with them no matter what. So, once again... Go Broncos!

The Shack

So, I'm reading this book The Shack and I just can't wrap my head around it! The gals I work with and I all read a LOT and a couple said I just MUST read this book. Started off good enough, daughter goes missing... Terrible and sad and you really want to know what happened. Well, then the dad goes and meets God. From the moment he meets God, the whole thing just glosses my eyes over. I find that I have read and reread the same paragraph so that I really get what's being said. I usually love learning someone else's point of view and investigating it, but this is just too much for me. I think I am understanding what the book is getting at and I realize it is fiction, but what I really want to find out is how God justifies taking the life of this little girl. And, I guess I just want to hear the reason, not all the babble about who God is and why God does what God does. Just give me the reasoning! I already have my ideas on God and this book won't change those, but it's interesting to hear another opinion. Oddly, a couple of times, I was about to give up reading and hand my book over to my friend who wants to read it but I just KEEP READING! Every time I start to get frustrated, I get to an interesting, easy-to-read section. I'm almost done with it and I really can't wait to get on to a new book.

Please tell me bad things come in 3's

One hell of a couple weeks I seem to be having! I went to my sister's mother's funeral last Friday which was oh-so-sad. I can't even imagine not having my mother. My sister-in-law went to California for her cousin's funeral just this past weekend. On Saturday Mr. Gary Reynolds, my highschool dean and longtime family friend, passed away from cancer. It was a really odd cancer... He had somehow gotten a melanoma in his stomach. Never seen such a thing and it took less than a year to claim him. Wonderful man who meant a lot to everyone he met. So, then yesterday, an old friend of mine who I was still acquainted with was in an ATV wreck. Apparently, the guy she was with had WAY too much to drink. Either way, she fell off the back, hit her head on the curb and didn't get up. Not sure she will make it at all... I heard about it on the radio and it just makes me sick. OK, well I guess that's actually FOUR things. I should be done for a while, or perhaps that last one has started another set of 3??? Geez, I hope not. I'm exhausted :(

School daze

I am in a daze! I am having trouble wrapping my mind around the idea that my children are growing up. How did I go from the first day of Kindergarten bawling my eyes out to making the appointment for Ashlie's senior pics??? I think it's taken me until September to make the appointment because I subconsciously believe that if I don't get the pics done, she won't graduate and leave me. Ashlie has started the countdown until her 18th bday and I have been counting right along with her, but I can't imagine her not here for me to pester. She has all these big "non-plans" to travel after graduation or maybe go to college or maybe take a year off. Oh, who knows? I guess we will see what happens.

She texted me (yeah, that's how we communicate primarily) the first day of school and said, "MOM! I'M A SENIOR!" I replied, "Yeah, I know :(" She was in shock at how the freshmen look so young and I needed to remind her that she was a child's size 12 her freshman year. She didn't even hit 5 foot or 100 pounds until she was a sophomore! Amazing what 3 years will do.

And, I have 2 more daughters to go! One is in 7th grade (another big milestone) and one is in 5th. What will I do when THEY get to this point? Part of me will be dying of anticipation for the Empty Nest, part of me will just be dying as they grow and go. Funny how you hear this will happen, but you never EVER believe it will actually occur.